A rant of sorts

I read an entry over at Why wait's blog and it got me thinking.


Does anybody here, who's lost a significant amount of weight, have those people in their lives telling them how good they look now, how pretty they've become, etc?

It's like... how do you even respond to that? Happy, sad, confused?

For me, It usually makes me feel pretty good, because this is how I look -now- and they are complimenting me. It look a lot of hard work and determination to lose 33.4 pounds, and I feel like it's really paid off when people notice and compliment me. And I still have about 60 more pounds to lose!!

But, what about the people before you lost weight?
The family members and friends who ridiculed you because you were "too big".
My mother, so many times in my life, has told me how "beautiful" I would be if I just lost some weight. MY MOM. Shouldn't my mother already find me beautiful? And, technically speaking, beauty and health are 2 total opposites. If I am not "beautiful" now, then what will dropping some weight really do? Weight loss isn't  some kind of instant face lift or make-over or something. Losing weight might *ENHANCE MY CURRENT FEATURES* but it can't make someone beautiful that isn't already!

My brother in law, many times in the past, told me and my niece that we would never find a "good man" unless we lost weight. What?? A "good man" is going to see me on the inside and out. A good man is going to see through the outside, for what I am on the inside. And most of all, a good man is going to love ME for who I already am on the inside, not what I am or am not on the outside.


It's just very irritating to think about.


I started this weight loss journey because I realized I needed to lose weight. I didn't want to keep going at the rate I was going, and just keep gaining weight, until one day I realized I was one of them people, stuck in their house and unable to move or go anywhere. Too big to get off the couch. I did this for my health. I wanted to start weight loss and put an end to weigh gain. I am 23, and I want to look good and feel good. I'm sick of being insecure and uncomfortable in my own body and I'm doing something about it.

-I AM- doing something about it! Those people who wanted to put their two sense in never did a thing to help me in weight loss, and they damn sure aren't the reason that I started this journey! I am doing this for me and for nobody else.

So basically, those nasty comments really did nothing but make me more insecure, and probably made me eat more to forget the pain I felt from them. They didn't help me, that's for sure.


All I can do now is lose weight for me
and then laugh in the faces of those who thought I could never do it!